Dark Night of the Soul
The darkness and the silence was deafening. I had gotten rid of most of my furniture and all I had was a desk, an office chair, and a bedroom set. I was 37 years old and my last girlfriend of two years had moved out. I was once again, alone, abandoned, and lost.
I was dabbling in new age practices and modalities, like reiki, tarot card readings, and meditation. After quit my teaching job, I spent my days researching new age things, the law of attraction and meditation. Little did I know I was becoming mentally ill.
I had suffered from mild depression most of my life but it hadn’t escalated until my early 30’s when I started my teaching career. I was hit with crippling anxiety and I started taking anti-depressants under the advisement of my doctor. Along with my new diagnosis of depression, I lost myself in self-medication: alcohol, marijuana as well as overeating. Coping with life’s stress was getting harder and harder. But I still endured.
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